Well, that should do it!
Jun. 18th, 2025 11:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lavenderfleuretI think I've made all the necessary edits I want to this page.
It is currently 11:31pm on a work night, and I haven't written for my current fanfiction I've been scribbling at for a friend. I have no idea why I'm even writing it. My heart's not in it.
My heart's not in anything, recently.
Even my trip to Japan, a trip that most would covet, feels like a distant memory, like a lifetime long since passed.
Everything feels the same. I cannot let it end this way.
There were a lot of things I (was forced) to learn about myself, while I was there. Among other things:
-> If you see something you like, just get it. You will regret it if you don't. The money will come back.
-> You will embarrass yourself. That's just a part of life. Everyone affected will forget about it, one day.
-> Get out of your comfort zone. For the love of God.
I'm currently in this limbo state. I've realised my life as it stands now, is not what I want. I want to do more, feel more. Be more.
There are many 'firsts' I've yet to have, even at the age of 25.
Nothing appeals to me. But, why not try something new?
Life is such a hassle.
Today, I think I've finalized my order for some proxy shipping items. DHL be damned - I want them. I'll place the order for all the items in the warehouse by the end of June - remind me.
And then, it'll be July...
I hope it rains more, by then.
Good night, and may God be with you.
It is currently 11:31pm on a work night, and I haven't written for my current fanfiction I've been scribbling at for a friend. I have no idea why I'm even writing it. My heart's not in it.
My heart's not in anything, recently.
Even my trip to Japan, a trip that most would covet, feels like a distant memory, like a lifetime long since passed.
Everything feels the same. I cannot let it end this way.
There were a lot of things I (was forced) to learn about myself, while I was there. Among other things:
-> If you see something you like, just get it. You will regret it if you don't. The money will come back.
-> You will embarrass yourself. That's just a part of life. Everyone affected will forget about it, one day.
-> Get out of your comfort zone. For the love of God.
I'm currently in this limbo state. I've realised my life as it stands now, is not what I want. I want to do more, feel more. Be more.
There are many 'firsts' I've yet to have, even at the age of 25.
Nothing appeals to me. But, why not try something new?
Life is such a hassle.
Today, I think I've finalized my order for some proxy shipping items. DHL be damned - I want them. I'll place the order for all the items in the warehouse by the end of June - remind me.
And then, it'll be July...
I hope it rains more, by then.
Good night, and may God be with you.
